Secret Place

2008-04-30T20:35:00.000+08:00

moved!

msn me or something if you want the link! :)

2008-04-26T21:06:00.004+08:00

was about to start on a fantabulous and i mean FANTABULOUS BLOG ENTRY ABOUT always wanting to try out the new SHOKODU and having finally tried, SHOPPING SPREE today that amounted to a few hundred, rocking marche rostis and crepes, meetups, pranks we played and RANDOM funny events that has injected my life with THIS much (OF COS U CANT ESTIMATE) joyyyy throughout the otherwise mugger week. and YES i should feel guilty enjoying amidst my exams (another paper down today). AND RIGHT NOW I SHOULD BE AT ERIC'S BIRTHDAY POOLSIDE PARTY! BUT!
ZZ!

this really really really, and i mean all the reallys in the world, trivial thing happened. and it made me realise why WE, yes- you and me CANNOT have a normal relationship. Of course there are so many other "pairs of us" that experience difficulties through the course of theirs but the sparks of friction that flew tonight (SUCHA DRAMA QUEEN!) just proves a dead-end here.

I feel like BLASTING IN YOUR FACE.
I TRIED, OKAY?
I TRIED to make it work.
To make us work.
ALL these years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fucking years wasted throughout my teens, not that i'm very young anymore and THATS PRECISELY WHY IT MATTERS.
ALL these years of SHOULD-HAVE-BEEN HAPPINESS!!

And all this while I've been blaming myself, turning poor me into the worry anxious tart i now am.
But for once, tonight, I decided to take a step back.
And I looked.
And I saw through you.
The words you say.
They slice.
And for once I thought to myself, maybe just maybe, the problem doesn't lie with me.
RELEASE YOURSELF!
I can't explain how much you affect me.
I wish you didn't the way you did and still do.
I can't explain how upset I am that our relationship isn't normal.
Enough of trying on my side, enough of trying to break down your wall.
If you don't fancy my company, I wouldn't want to and will not bother to stay even a second longer.
Stone cold heart.
I'm done here.
And to all the kpo-s out there I'm not talking about Jo! (yes it has come to my attn that certain pple that i previously didnt know of has started patronizing this blog -_-; whatever little satisfaction you derive out of it)

stop spying on my life la!
yes realllll bitchy mood now.
click x.
bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've been hiding in this bed for weeks from this
Throats raw from screaming and I haven't said a word
The sky is calling, and the stars, they point to this
To a chair we see your breath in the air (breath in the air)
but only for a little while

Your cold pale skin and tainted purple lips
Let me embrace you with this kiss
And together we'll float like angels
Together... together we will float like angels

Higher than the heavens the clouds part ways
"Promise me to never look down!",
and we'll stay like this forever
If your stomach feels weak,
then my work here is done
To hide from our twisted ways,
I've been hiding in this bed
Been hiding in this bed for weeks

2008-04-18T01:10:00.003+08:00

MICH's 19th BDAE @ billybombers!!!so much catching up and we arrived at the conclusion that different churches and crazy schedules cldnt -and didnt -change anythn between us :) sirloin steak, good ole fishnchips and zee distasteful complimentary drink. shopped arnd for a bit after thattttttt , but not-so-guilty girls afterall! damn good buys at marinasq :))

headed down for planetshakers concert with esther jeremy and 2 others from their church @ expo, with jo. WHAT AN EYEOPENER! refreshing and dynamic!! i love how some of planetshakers' lyrics are so beautiful and manifest so simply yet powerfully the heart and will and love of god; never let him go. my one prayer would be that everyoneeeeee (and by this i really do mean EVERYONE ) gave themselves a chance, to experience him.

went to john little sale at expo! got suede flats! SO worthit!!!!!!!!!

hosted a group of 15 phillipino missionaries at my house , one of the last opportunities before we move out. this boy's zed. he is SO adorable. came up to me on monday morning when all of us were having breakfast and said "You are my crushhh!" .. wheeee! HAHA.. told him i love him too (jo very jealous). don't you think we have the same toothy grin!???

anyhowww, was doing my readings and i am officially convinced, like 101% sure, that I am a perfect synonym for comorbidity. i.e., i suffer from mood, anxiety and all other disorders save for the ones that involve eating . i have these manic periods.. probably bipolar and a bit of schizo. Definitely OCPD. still rmb researching on this topic for sec 2's ipw.. and i recall feeding Sulastri , my teamate, pork beehoon (absent-mindedly)! saw her the other day at kr term haha.. talked to sp online recently 2.. now we can look back and laugh on the things that happened in sec2! anw before i digress, psych's pretty interesting, would have majored in it after econs.

getting germ vocab and finals results tmr. and that'll be the end of Deutsch for this sem. i dont know, if all goes well i'll probably move on to german 3 next sem.. but as for now..BAH. Wir mochte nicht Deutsch studieren und am letzten Wochenende habe ich fur Deutsch Prufung gestudiert und dann schlecht gegangen. If it makes any sense at all.

jogged last night at West Coast! WOW. i can't tell you how much my thigh muscles ached after that, inspite of the slow speed i was trudging along at.. so slow that cw and i managed to talk in between breaths throughout. it's been a long time since i exercised.. some attempt to keep fit! haha! btw was pretty mad at some incident!!!! hall fined me for like, screaming and "making excessive noise" past 11pm. the evil roomie, oli and i were digging for my lost transponder (key) in the rubbish bin at about 3 one morning. i shalln't start on how i thought it got there. damn happy when i found it so i screamed like mad la but urghhhh the next moment? the cost of making a new transponder = $42 but the fine was $50.. :(:(:(:( might as well dont find it la...

Smileysources of the week:
-ECF's successful choc fondue party at night !
-successful room bidding for next sem!

-gr8response for the internship even got pple from SIM and NTU responding!

-jo's calls (the ones i COERCED him to make every morning since the start of the week HAHA)

you are such a joy to hear, to love, to-allthingsbrightandbeautiful with!!! :)

-WHAT THE PUCK! officially the fun-nest dota round of the week.

i l o v e y o u !

it's getting lateeeeeee. sleeptight!

2008-04-05T10:13:00.001+08:00

LOVE :) they're so pretty and classic.

2008-04-04T23:11:00.003+08:00

I GOT NEW BOOTS !!!! *SQUEALS* all the way from japan :D with love from aunt layling! and mom got SO MANY LOVELY SWEEETS AND WHATNOTS!!!! pretty handmade kimono creations! upload pics sooon!!!!

2008-04-02T03:46:00.006+08:00

pretty much decided on the layout of my room esp after trip to ikea on sat! when it came to drawing the line between practicality and my fetish for summery colours (yes,pink being a subset) .. had to make extraaaaaspecialllll effort. had our usual of swedish meatballs and fried wings!! insatiable :) seriously? jam with meatballs? innovation! :) got new black shorts.. very nice material.. softsatin almost. sponsored by dad.

haircut @ dylan's . been a while. he's setting up his own salon near amk central. i guess change is the only constant thing eh? and fyi, my hair has been in the same grassy stage for at least 3 months.. so the haircut was timely and much needed. refreshing! btw sunsilk soft and silky is really goooood. like, i feel the effects of my bleached hair softening. and asience conditioner/avene moisturiser is highly recommended too. :D

headed down to church for bible study thereafter. topic of discussion was laziness, something that i too often fall prey to. blame it on the fall of man/human nature. you/i-know-it. sometimes i cant help but give 'reasons' knowing that they are, in essence, excuses. anw dinner was at ttsh kopitiam. yongtaufoo makes one of my fav chi food! love the straw mushrooms and seaweed. i think it's the only time i eat healthily. haha freaking rocks. visited eelin and her new born amelia at TMH .. i'm sure she's gonna blossom into a pretty some day. I can already tell! nice lashes . told jo i wanna deliver at Gleneagles in the future. against all odds. mom and daughter ought to share the same birth place haha! plus it's a private hospital and somehow in safer-hands.

(p/s im in the last picture.. but it came out as her imaginary fren..)

Thurs spelt fun fun fun. walked around in central mall after last min tuition (urgh) and got my necessary eyeliner deal in like, ten mins? damn worthit. jap o+ brand buy one get one free! and it's two sided. so it's like four colours in total.. the blue's a nice striking shade. headed down to MOS for nus' voices bash. supported; zhifei on the bass. woah. this guy named roger's damn stunning, esp his rendition of jay's heiseyoumo.. first time i heard it was on zhen's mp3. and he played live keyboards too.. wowed! love the kimono number too. haha met denise there! john's friend.. damn coincidental! couldnt recognise her.. been 2 years? anyway all 6 of us, yes strangers included, went up for the games and won 6 pairs of Gv tix/ shiseido stuff and some goodies including now defunk lolitapop$50 vouchers. haha . got free lessons at a music sch too. all in the name of fun la ;)

slept till late on monday and woke up to an empty house. realised how much i'm gonna miss it , and even more so, the memories. can't recall how many times i've walked myself down memory lane, through the hallway and rooms.. some memories seemingly more vivid than others. had buffet and swirl :D

my spree item is officially on this island! yay!!!! though not officially in my hands yet , but still :D soon soon. i told him i was going through depression and he was like .. you're just in need of retail therapy, haha. true true true became an esprit member on sunday after dance. yay the first stanza's done haha! damn happy with my purchases too! i think i haven't splurged in a long while. plus tuition earns me a few hundred this month.. so not too bad :) we cooked lunch for dad and wen since mom's holidaying in japan with her frens. oooh nice cherry blossoms :) anyway our absolutely sumptuous dinner comprised of ngoh hiang, tomato prawns, omelette and guotie. it turned out so much better than i had expected us to do.. he peeled the prawns, of course.

ss proj submitted! haha we didnt do much, really. finally went for psych lecture on mon night ( schizo's a really interesting topic. search youtube for gerald/schizo damn sad! ) .. had dinner with them and studied with buddy jared till bk lights out.. headed back to hall.. we sleptsuper early at 4am -_- dragged myself out of bed this morning due to raunchy adventures lastnight,not! haha. met up with kaiwei at ten ! yay after so long!

bk breakfast .. it's her virgin hashbrown experience. Exhilerating la! haha finally studied like ONE chapter of micro econs. cue: applause. HAPPY APRIL FOOLS EVERYONE.. haha cant begin to count how many pple the eveilroomie and i have conned. but everyone gets a taste of their own medicine. Congwei messagd me and said free arts lunch for all wearing yellow top yellow shoes and yellow shorts. almost got connnnnnnnned. i was decked out in like 2/3 yellow?

Headed down to LT9 for Econometrics Lecture.. yesss.. my third in the whole sem. It's seriously by god's grace how the evil roomie and i did pretty darn well for our mid term stats paper. actually listend for the first hour.. but started to smell edna's fruity pens in the second.. haha. we got lost somewhere... SSE i think. err..chatterboxed.decided to leave at five mins to the end of lect. haha. got myself a waffle.. and then tuition AGAIN. had sheare's for lunch cum dinner cum supper. walked all the way there and back .. thank god shangxin came to dapao too. all these irregular meals has my stomach topsyturvy ( or pancreas, according to the bioguru celeste)

at ps's manhattten's. a quick bite :D btw, vantage point makes a good example of the deitic function of films. watched an empress and her warriors.. i'm still surprised as to how the general managed to survive so many spears.

now i'm just staring at vinna's handwritten convo for our german oral on friday, hoping my brain will somehow work its charm.. pray i'll survive :)

2008-03-26T02:19:00.009+08:00

Theme: GeeksNFreaks.
And in case you were wondering, we came as candy girls/ fake oompaloompa (Go Roald Dahl!)! haha Spot willy wonka!

A blockers

Streetfighters.. Leonard

best ERC comm members!! (feat. Flinstones!)

the evil one and I! making of candylolli in spideyroom!

k.i.s.s./joker

sampan woman HAHA. & mr eusoff (aka theatre studies partner..)

..a ___ meiyi. / Wolverine.

the twins ( nic on the right)

Chris :) / Esther my fav senior. yes.. the crazy horse session HAHA.

joe/ brucelee

theflash/ HARDGAY

a solemn moment / royston
jerm(middle) is damnhot/ cyclops

junee & peiming as ninja turtles

101 dalmations/jasmine/yeekiat as zorro!

amy (:

camera girl manyan! :D

We spent most on the make up .. trimmed our fake eyelashes etc.. manyan did our hair. weijun has the nicest creamed hair!!!! :D cel and mine turned out floppish haha and surprisingly the heels didnt kill me. seriosly the whole room was in a mess man. shockpink hairspray/accessories/ strewn rubbish/broken necklaces/eyeshimmer/shadow/blusher/foundation/clothes strewn. but its the funn-EST part. haha. went shopping for their clothes one day before! late late dinner treat by shang at cafe cartel.

Had Durian at Geylang after dnd itself! swee and shang drovere. I took shang's car (safer) HAHA. We get this uncomfortable feeling walking the streets there though..especially at sucha late hour. (Since our dnd at M Hotel was delayed by 3 hours?everyone turned up fashionably late as usual). ANw, at geylang it was the firstime I pointed vulgar at someone in a manner of self defence (or not much of) haha. felt the need to act.

NUS OPENHOUSE WAS A SUCCESS!!!!

check out our busstop design.guided tour #1 stop.

had a hardtime stalling the scholars.. hs and i practically crapped.. haha but it was fun

everything's done now :D

hmm got thru the interviews for ehoc. Monday was also Adam Khoo -cum- Advisors Alliance internship talk. I haven't come up with the posters for advertisement =/ grrr. due this thurs! sheesh.

oooh and i pillion rode for the virginth time in my life. i feel like........ ghost rider. in my denim skirt. so i had to sit on one side. Yes, knowing how i dont like the length of my skirts to be too long. breezy comfy is the way to go.. thighlength is best. it was a short ride anyhow. worth an experience!

on a random note, hope the evil one passes her driving test tmr!
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Coolpad for the eyes!

supper (:

so much cuter when he was young?............................ HAHA now he's like..the goofy one!

i guess togetherness isn't as much a name as it is felt. he's scheduled for surgery on may 9th.
i pray that all goes well

that's all for now! i am going to paint my new room a brilliant candy stripe. OMGZXZXX MY OWN ROOM AFTER soon-to-be 20 years of living.
It's gonna be dayindayoutprincessliving.

2008-03-06T10:14:00.004+08:00

woke up to the pitterpatter of the rain.. good day for sleepin in and snuggling under the covers all warm and fuzzzzzzzzyyyyyy; a luxury that i, as an nus student of blahblahblah modules, unfortunately can't have. lessons' ended but there's still that painful microecons midterm tmr AND the stats one next week. :( and there's a tuition session later.. girls' have requested for twice a week from now on.

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OKAY NOW THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY POST! (to the dwindle reading this)

Attn: Anyone who needs an internship
Attachment company: Advisors Alliance, subsidiary of OCBC Bank, a comprehensive financial services provider.

Incentives
-$700 upon fulfilling all requirements of the internship.
-may be awarded a fully paid trip to South Africa for outstanding performance!
-acquire financial services licenses and all fees incurred will be fully sponsored
-all seminars camps and courses are fully sponsored

Area of study that the internship will cover
-sales and marketing concepts
-entrepreneurship and biz management
-future and career options in the financial services industry
-employees pensions program
-investment and fized deposit
-risk management and healthcare cost management
-wealth management
-biz/individual risk management
-retirement and financial independence-credit cards and credit management

Schedule
-about 2 months but only 9 hours/week (3 hours per session)
-flexibility of schedule allowed,that is participants get to decide on when they wanna go down

T/C
-all participants must fulfill at least 80% of attendance of the programme.

-participants will have to pass 3 theory tests that the company will send u for(Module 5 Rules and Regulations of Financial Services, Module 9 Basic Concept of Risk and Wealth Management and Health Insurance) and obtain financial services license. besides, also have to fulfil 3 successful practical to qualify as completion of the internship requirements

-any breach of agreement or failure w/o valid will cause a forfeit of $300 deposit (that all participants have to deposit first and will be returned later, this is nothing involving the $700 that will be earned) in the course of internship or after the attachment period, any additional income earned by the participant through his/her marketing activities will be directly credited to his / her designated bank account.

-after the internship prog, participants are not bonded to stay. they are allowed to utilize the license and knowledge acquired to operate in any other financial institutions of his/her choice

-only PR/Singapore Citizens, min 21 years old(by 1st June 08), A levels or Poly Grads min may apply

now that you've read it, spread the word!!! it's a really good deal i feel, wld have done it myself if not for the fact that i'm not 21 YET. anyone interested has to let me know asap! (yay a few people have alr signed up since first advertised yesterday but I still can't believe we will be going down to lectures to talk about this. i mean..i could have like, stage fright?)

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My Gyokuro

jap sesame mochi from a very sweet dear. reaaaaaaaaaaalllysqueaaaaaallly good!

"People are going to disappoint you.I get that...I kind of expect that but I don't know. What if you wake up one day and find out you're the disappointment?"
-One Tree Hill(Peyton)

can't wait to finish watching season 5!

2008-03-03T22:48:00.006+08:00

A person often meets his destiny.. on the road he took to avoid it. -Jean de La Fontaine/

"A Saint once decreed that a man must agree to a woman's proposal today. Give me a sign whether to meet me at eight, at the same place you sit and fulfill the tradition of February 29.."

The Leap Years was definitely worth the watch! It's the first movie that I really want to blog about in so long. Plot isn't as cliched as I'd expected it to be. Anyway, this possibly doesn't apply to everyone, but it was in essence very, very romantic to me. <3> And on a more personal note, it touched my dreamer/romanticist side. (haha) Made me ask myself if I could/have ever/will ever experience a love this strong that would make me wait 4 whole years just for that one meeting? haha. I think it's just a thin line between the silly or a love that's potently strong. 4 years is afterall a long time. A part let-down however, was that the hint to the twist in the plot came too early. Still, I didn't expect the ending.

Main leads were superb! Casting was good. Everingham's synonymous for charming, charming, charming. This time, it's a very different portrayal of him as compared to his role in Shutter (shudders- haha). And to put simply, Li-Lin is gorgeous :) A simple kind of beauty. There's no one quite like her around. Loved the genuinity of the relationship she shared with her mom too; and as for some of the abstract emotions -she managed to pull them off so effortlessly. Acting was really commendable on her part. Great supporting cast too; esp V.lopez (one of Li-lin's Sex-in-the-City-like bff) and Joan Chen- still very attractive despite her age. There's this aura and woman-ness about her. Quite undescribable. (or forgive my lack of vocab?) Jason, Tracy Tan, Qi YW and Nadya were reall hotties too. haha yum :)

Anyway following the alarm that has been sounded nation-wide on the escaped extremist and having seen so much of his pictures.. I got abit anxious today. Two malay men were sitting beside me at the bus-stop. Suicide-bomber alert? From time to time I'ld glance over to see if one of them was trying to activate some kind of bomb with his phone. I mean what if he was pretending to be tech-unsavvy but actually has this bomb thing in the bagpack he had with it that's connected somehow to his phone- just waiting for that signal from his BOSS to activate. WHO KNOWS, RIGHT?

tried to capture the image of my blown up body (OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG) in my mind.. and all that pain in that instant(OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG) ....then my bus came. and i hop-ped on. and.. yeah HAHA end of story. -_- called jo to tell him about it and i know he thinks it's silly. And so it was. HAHA. anyway the newspaper reported that they've received at least 330 leads abt S. Of course they're in top confidentiality but with so many leads.... there should be some kind of erm.. advancement in the case shouldn't there be? Oooh and I was thinking it would be EXCITING if I were in the army, since ground troops are mobilised. Hunting someone this dangerous down. Anyway, I would think he has a fake mole or something by now.... and the most dangerous place could actually be the safest place..so.

ANYWAY I HAD ANOTHER NEAR-DEATH EXPERIENCE TODAY. I NEARLY LOST MY PHONE!!! MY GOODNESS. thanks to jared and weijun!!!!!! thanks you guys. haha!!! the third near-death experience was psych test. but i shalln't go on about it. the gradebook will do all the talking.

Another shock : Had a dental checkup today again at HPB.. and lo and behold during my xray for wisdom teeth, there's this ADULT EXTRA ALIEN TOOTH growing randomly somewhere in my gum. like embedded inside. Too dangerous to take out for now because it'll definitely affect my nerves and the other teeth. SO SAD :( seriously? and then i reached hall to find out I'm not the only one with this anomaly.)

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can't say much for now but this view is something I'm gonna miss.

Through O levels, A levels, and part of Uni exams.

I can't explain how big a change this is for me..

but life goes on.

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And this is The Hamster.

I have a feeling it doesn't really want to get to know me

HAHA even played dead when I tried to let it make friends with my dog.

Should see the vid some time.

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Sunday was fun. Apologise is such an apt song ! So yeah coming up with simple dance steps to it with Althea was fun; but not half as much as seeing some of the kids dance to it haha. emofied. haha.

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And yes the issue about Papabear(haha) and I (all the asking). Now, we're meeting mostly on sundays in church , if on weekdays- it's a bogusbonus. Army and Uni and Hall altogether really is a good grounds for means of testing. I never thought all these would pose a problem but they did and I'm glad they did.

Someone said I'm crazy when i told her we've broken up but we're already engaged and we're gonna get married. Haha yeah this is the first time i'm actually talking about it here and yes i know it sounds insane. It was this silly lil grassy engagement thing by the beach. haha. he still has the rings he fashioned. And, this whole thing dated only about a year back? But marriage- we've talked about this couple of times, kind of know it deep down.The break is necessary to sort things out slow, on a low-anxiety level. It's mainly because some months, especially those packed with activities and exams are just insanely hectic and to be able to call him on my cell while he's in camp is already very much a blessing in itself.

It definitely takes time to iron certain things out. Like how he's decided to call our son Leonardo when I think there're better names around haha. NO LA NOT TRIVIAL STUFF LIKE THAT -_-. So anyway the next time we get back together, it'll probably be a few years from now. But final, to forever. Our wedding place has been decided OKAY albeit too early and I know again this all sounds so crazy. And I can't say it all here but the road to getting the parents' acceptance , or specifically my parents' was an ardous one. And i'm so proud of him that on Sunday my mom even told me to get married next year and register for a flat so she can buy it for us. HAHA!! even crazily wants to sponsor his uni education! A year before, can't imagine anything near this man. Those few months were such a struggle. Really. But i guess we learn to cherish most the things we fight the hardest for. oooh and a sidenote it's going to be so much fun watching him dance with the rest of the kids in church haha.

Sorry it's been such a long post. Some things have been kept in the heart for a while and it was good to finally share with whoeveryouare/fillintheblanks.

2008-02-29T00:06:00.001+08:00

Have you ever tried to find the words ..
But they don't come out right

2008-02-28T03:07:00.004+08:00

psych rp. electrodes. torture, really.

(weijun is laughing even as she snaps this shot)

the experimenter saw my brain activity and implied that there are 2 possibilities:

1)i'm a really reallllly sleepy person, or

2)'it's' simply not working.

but i choose to believe neither la..

a f t e r g l o w

dnd bash@ butterfac last thurs.

suppered till 5 plus after that

and i had german test @ 10 the next morn.. (gonecaseeee)

here, it's the evilroomie and i.

it's rare that we have a shot tgt :)

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1. L change the world had nothing to do with the previous deathnotes.

2. I hope that L will get to live.

3. Ichiban after that was simple and gooooooooood :)

4. Can't wait to watch The Leap Years.

5.Had jap buffet again today.

6. Got my first tuition pay! :D Will blog about the kids next time! haha!

7.finished my psych term assignment! YAYYYYYY

8. Horlicks is getting kranky. And i'm babysitting Milo for her too..

2008-02-18T02:55:00.012+08:00

seriously overdue snapshots!

at first we couldnt really get any move right.. haha

felt so bad to be his partner.

just glad it's over..

hantutehteh reigns!

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fooling around with joel's mac! :D

contented with my new specs!!
was forced to get it cos my green ones kind of gave way.
:(
photos courtesy of a rockstar!!

prevday was busy with arts club vday bazaar..

packed lil polka dot gifts with celeste and gave them out to the girls and others around midnightt..

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vday itself was a simple affair

watched p/s i love you and cried buckets! eyewear all smudged.

took oldsch neoprints! but can't seem to scan them in soo.. yeahh.

at sushi tei *virgin time* :

golden rolllllllll

sweet treats <3>

we took both luge and sky rides! but sky ride was damn scaryy!!!!!!!!

i screamed my lungs out haha.. spoilt things for others.

yay he's wearing the AX shirt i got him! nice??

@songs of the sea..

:D

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thanks for the hamster!;

hello my name is horlicks;

my neighbour is milo.

i'm a robo~~(cop)~~ski

don't embrace interaction with humans.

you can call me..

lil miss shy!

i'm a destroyer of silent wheels!

yarr.. on a more serious note.. horlicks is suffering from lack of proper sanitation.. will get the bedding for it soon..

I"M OFFICIALLY A MEMBER OF PET LOVERS CENTRE!!

(hooray!)
anyone need discount can come find me...

random:

the best vb cheerleaders!

though we lost to th but the guys match was really exciting!

next match on wed!

the "treasures" hunt he planned..

so much more than i can ever ask for, just for a day.
haven't worn the swatch yet though cos gotta get it adjusted. tad too big.
i love how everything's in my fav colour.. white gold pink

so damn sweet of you

the thought put into the presents.. the envelopes that had little cliche clues like "unscramble the words" :)

this moment is perfect

i hope that it will stay

2008-02-12T03:08:00.000+08:00

one of the cny visitations!

was at springvale condo! i love pastor's doggie and the stew his wife makes! (not doggy stew la)
he poos everywhere.
called shampers!

our neoprint @ bugis! love the young youth's ministry! :D
everyone's born with a reason, to love them is mine!
really fulfilling.
belle's my fav. damn cute damn violent and only 11
played nintendo boxing game and baseball.
had thai food at one of the bugis alleys.
sweeeeeet bubbletea icecream :D
watched CJ7.. someone please find him/it/her for me.

hopefully catchin tis with sharon dearie! :) L's an intellectual being who feeds on candy and never grows fat. ooooooooooo. :)

and the hamsters have multiplied 3 generations! at granny's house.

darling :))

tradition to make tangyuans for reunion!

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caught up with josh at vivo. wahlao cant believe we both turned up in chequered shirts. HAHA damn funny. just us, since grace couldn't make it in the end. watched AHLONGPTELTD. haha damn no storyline but yeah go catch it!! MARK LEE's quite awesome at his role.

anyway been crying alot at movies these days.just weird. like even yesterday's cj7.. can't believe the alien like, switched lives to let stephenchowdaddy live.

like just damn sad la!!! dono how they make the scenes so sad. can't stand it when they slowwwwmooooo the whole sad part... makes it like, 1000000000x worst.

anyway ate damn alot! had thaiexpress (again) after not being able to decide for so long.. haha it's like i was deprived of it before or smthn in my past life. then hongkongkimgarycafe for the honeypomelo drink.. not bad. and also B&J's strawberry&kiwisorbet! (ROCKS)

and i guess this meetup was much needed after eons. to cut the long story short, it was damn childish. hahaha had a good laugh about it. but no regrets, really. been donkey years? he talks with the same sarcasm i know and im glad things havent changed except that he's now a god chaser! talked damn long at the sky garden.. about everything. a strange feeling really.. oddly familiar, i guess we all know when we've found and nearly lost a real good friend. especially when the r/s's so purely platonic.

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and to the babe who knows best :

THANKS!!!! REALLY!!!! LOVE YA! 3am in the morning.. SWEETHEART!!!
some random photoshoot collage done by jy too! haha

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the dp flowers (thanks guyss) ..
roses remind me of vdae!
btw the world's first blue roses are officially invented.
like, grown.
not artificially dyed!
YAY! :D
wish everybady a superrrrrrrrromanticccccc vdae!! :D

p/s: i love you

2008-02-06T14:12:00.000+08:00

only managed to blog now, so expired, but YES!

DP's been like the most fulfilling thing so far, this year!

BIGTHANKYOUU to everyone that came : mom,dad,wen,joa <3> ,churchfrens,matt,zf,zach,mike,dom, and my fav gal!

GO nike black sportsbra!

save me... (our evanescence item!)

camwhoring with the girls

to sum up the whole thing in a few words would be an impossible task! HAHA. latenights and milopengs w the girls, funny instances, praciticing of stunts, watching crazy horse in esther's room to get expressions right -_-, wtf and hectic moments, swingirls, shopping for the choreo's present with junbin, fly bar falling moments, everythingggggggggg!! :)) EVERYTHING'S ETCHED DEEPLY IN MY HEART!!!! ahhhhhh.

anyway! monday was v-day shopping with cel at vivo!!! yessss oooh i love daiso. HAHA. hey though cheap, but the stuff's REALLL funkyehhh okay??? HAH! and of cos !$%^&*( hours, or the bigger part was spent getting his pres elswhere! had a hard time decididing.. scoured the whole place man! she got a nice dress for herself! dinner was simple affair at hk kimgary cafe.. baked rice/ spag .. 2nd time eating there alr.. but damn full! .

had haagen daz in my fav flavour since a long while YUMMMMM. ooh there' this very very very very EXTREMELY CUTEEE CHOWCHOW at petlovers centre! ahhh wish i could free up all the lil puppies there.. and robohamsters are the CUTEST OKAY! CUTEST!!!!!!! (HINTHINT*) then was patrol with her in the board room for her night duty at about 12am! wahh seriously it's quite scary if one's to do it alone... we lugged all our books there to study.. but didn't work out in the end.

speaking of books, felt totally bimbotic at my first psych tutorial of the year...

Tutor: As i call out your name,tell me why you chose the module.

Me : (i'll just see what everyone has to say.. then crap something when it comes to my turn.. i'm usually end of the list anyway)

Tutor: Student A.

Student A: took this to complement some psychoanalytical module that's required under my science major.. (me:YAWNS..).. enhance, wholistic learning

Tutor: TYX

Me:(shit.)

Tutor: (waiting)

Me: it's interesting, really..

Tutor: (awaits something more from me but gets none)
Class: silence, then, laughs.

damn embarrassing ok! most of them were like smart pharmacy seniors there.. argh! thank god i had weijun and simin with me.. haha

another random thing! i saw this guy wearing a "let me show you how hot we are when we f***" shirt this morning. like totally in your face! blackprints.. bad tagline. totally distasteful! i mean, i'd much prefer fcuk's "hot as fcuk" shirt.

alright anyway! i'm not feeling very well. haven't eaten since morning... like i'm shitting water. NOT A GOOD SIGN. i want to eat my cny goodies!!! PINEAPPLE TARTSSSSSSS YESSSS MY WEAKNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! reunion dinner tonight :D cny shopping w mom very fruitful this year! get well soon, yx.

Tell me how many beads there are

In a silver chain

Of evening rain,

Unravelled from the tumbling main,

And threading the eye of a yellow star-
So many times do I love again.

2008-01-29T03:15:00.000+08:00

we bought a sapphire winterwhite for wj and it's named A2!
damn cute
damn small
one month old
greedy and greyish.

i still don't get why hamsters eat up their own kind..
they give birth to such cute babies! :(
the only exception being campbells
something eerie about littlemissredeyes'!!

anyway i've always wanted a polarbear.
It's big enough for me to hug to bed
to wrestle with
nice and furry and white
and it'll make a good guard-bear
i'll feel safe!
sweeet sweet dreams!

oooo
grace was damn sweeeet.
a surprise supper instead of dance prac
romantic lights off setting with candles haha
best choreo ever!, together with betty (who's like, really patient)

jadepalace dinner last night was goooooooood
i had so many servings of peking duck cereal prawn
sharksfin eefunoodle
and dessert was boiled papaya with sago!
goooooooood.

OK.
truebluefoodie outtttttt.

Love is the emblem of eternity
it confounds all notion of time
effaces all memory of a beginning;
all fear of an end

2008-01-26T02:55:00.000+08:00

There is nothing sadder in this life than to watch the distance between your two bodies expand until there is nothing left but empty space... and silence.

2008-01-24T12:40:00.000+08:00

dance is as tiring as much as it is fun.
well at least we completed stunts yesterday..
I'm really looking forward to the end of dance production!
like just yesterday everything ended about 3am
and like i came back to my room and my roomie's fast asleep
and then i realise how really very tired i am
and i thought of all the time i could have had with..
i never believed in like hollywood couples who break up due to apparently
busy time schedules
or clashes in schedules
or the conjured terms like "inconcillable differences"
until now.
no wonder i get questions like those from edna.

tannin session with weijun yesterday at sens came to naught.
hardly any sun la.. had a flash drizzle even -_-

haha but we had fun talking for the hours we apparently tanned .. b&j thaiexpress
we went bikini-scouting too.
made plans for vday
but they're probably gonna be called off now..
i want to try sentosa luge one day!

i thank god it's still lecture week..
i haven't simulated myself to study mode
sorry i'm just talking about random stuff haha
my appeal for the stupid tutorial slot got rejected
my reason is quite valid what.. like sinus in the morning
so i cant wake up at 8am?
.. sigh

can't believe jieying's kitten died
of loneliness
when we were supposed to have ikea dinner tonight!
and get similar baskets for her kitten and my doggie..

anyway i'm listening to this jay song
that's called "tui hou"
or meaning, backing back.. or backing off or something like that..
and i don't know how to translate the lyrics
but yea they speak multitudes.

One last kiss
One last dance
To our first song
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Let's stay here for awhile and
Cherish every moment we're in denial
We both know
Its better if we just let it go

2008-01-19T20:27:00.000+08:00

This innocence is brilliant
Don't you let it pass you by
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
It's so strong
and now I let myself

be sincere.

2008-01-16T10:46:00.000+08:00

alriteyyyy blog-o-sphere.
first post churned in lightyearrs!!

update!
my elbows are hurting from vb.
like how strange, really!
i think i use the wrong techniques all the time!
that's what someone said when we played tennis during PE too.
like i use badminton strokes..
sigh.
on a random note, probably no ones knows but
i get really frustrated when i think about badminton.
bane of my life.

anw NUS blastards just sent out the email today
so yeah gotta go for dance after deferring for the whole of last sem
meeting charly n xinjie later onn..
got some $8 blastee to buy.
SUBWAYYing (YES FOOD PLEASE) sooon.
then there's 3G dance and trng again tonight.

the monotomy of gg for lectures.
but psych's interesting!
taking it with my fav girls and jared
(WHO forgot to bring the chocs he got from sydney AGAIN!)
haha.
but had my first econometrics lect ytd
i forecast a reallllllllly bleak cap looming.

AND the lecturer explained
if we want to get a random sample size for a survey,
you flip a coin and if it's heads you survey this passer-by that's coming your way
but if it's tails you skip him and flip the coin again for the next passer-by
well firstly, i don't know how to flip a coin
and by the time i've flipped it the person would have already walked past what no?
i was starting to wonder if the lecturer was trying at a joke,
apparently not, but either way failed attempt.
ooh another thing i noticed he has this korean/jap slang ( i can't decide) to his english.

two nights back after dance and dp photoshoot
we ran to support what was left of my roomie's finals at src
all the way from eusoff.
she was superb though we lost it to KR!
yupps
sand udden realisation about how much i miss jogging.
really.
breeze makes you feel all light and happy
i can't remember from geog if the breeze came from the land or sea haha.

introducing my fav-our-ite cheese that mom got for me!!!
it's sweet and has a tinge of tango.
COW-LOVING!
TRY IT!!!
I MISS MY FAMILYYYYYYYYY.

shoppin w mommy was quite fruitful over the weekends!
got a new fortress bag. it's big blue and multipurpose!
i love the many compartments.
G2000 (city casual) was having sale too!
got a velvet 3/4s and khaki looking one.
but i love my two pink SBs the MOST!!! yay for nike sale!
got a fox shirt. chequered.
and i forgot what else.

ohyeahh.
how to install skype?
we sent weihan off early monday morning at 6am..
for his shanghai NOC.
had a last meal with him last week
at the shifted chinatown mkt.
the food's not bad :D
love the peanut paste..
im just nuts about peaaaaanuts!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

GOTTA GO LATE FOR LUNCH!!!

We promise according to our hopes, and perform according to our fears.